Sunday, January 01, 2012

Simplify

That is my only goal in 2012:  To simplify.  I tend to "try" to be an overachiever and take on TOO many things and I spread myself TOO thin.  I have finally figured that out...genius!  LOL.

2012 is a new beginning of sorts...depending on if the world doesn't end on 12-21-12 (which happens to be my birthday).  Just kidding, I don't think the world is ending on 12-21.  So, 2012 is my new beginning.  Last year was bittersweet.  I have learned so much about myself and about my limits.  I am on the road to recovery.  My heart is sad but it is healing.  It will scar over soon.

I am so blessed to have had a full year with D.  2011 has been amazing with him.  I have enjoyed every single second with him and I can truly say that I haven't regretted one moment spent with him.  I am so thankful to have this little miracle man in my life.  Every diaper change, every bath, every fit (yeah, this has started this month), every early morning he wants to get up, every time he brings a book to me for me to snuggle and read to him...everything...I try to absolutely stop what I am doing so I can be "present" with him.  He is worth it and I wouldn't trade it for a minute.

My body hurts because I have been furiously cleaning my house from top to bottom.  I am tired because I have worked non stop for the last five days and I still am not finished.  Sigh.  I believe EVERY thing in my house has been touched now.  I have thrown away so much stuff.  I am slowly getting rid of the stuff M and I got together so I won't have a "memory" with it.  New things I get truly help me move forward.

My independent nature is re-surfacing.  I got married at 29 so I truly was on my own for 11 years.  My being independent was always a sore subject in the marriage, however, I still had to be the independent one and the leader.  Now, I don't have to worry about the variable, "M".  I know I can count on myself, does that make sense?

Simplifying my life will help me in many areas...personal (more time with D, more time for myself - exercise)...finances (I have everything I need - so it is time to save and focus on the future)...spiritual (I need to concentrate on the basics...that God loves me and wants the best for me AND I don't have to worry).  I will focus on knowing I can close my eyes and let him lead me this year.  Work...I try to take on the world...this year I have a wonderful assistant who is just plain awesome.  She and I are going to be the dynamic duo this year.  I have five areas that I am concentrating on and I am working on putting together an amazing team together.  I believe you are only as good as the people around you...so THAT is a focus.  Quality quality quality is the focus...not quantity.

Anyway, here's to 2012.  May your year be blessed.

1 comment:

cagrlasu said...

wishing you an an amazing 2012 Lisa!