Tuesday, February 01, 2011

I survived...

I survived my first day back to work.  He is in such good hands and is so loved but I still cried.  I teared up when I handed him over but BAWLED in the car on the way to work.  J sends me texts throughout the day and pictures of the little guy so it makes me day go by quicker for some reason.

Work is INSANE.  I have so much to dig through and go through...I'm just overwhelmed at the moment.  I feel like it was just yesterday I was here and then I look over and see pictures of D and I'm like ???  OH, YEAH!  I have a kid!  It is the strangest feeling!

Anyway, I survived...I did...today was a little easier.  I didn't cry.  I made sure I got up earlier (and I am NOT a morning person) to spend a little extra time with him before I dropped him off.  I didn't internally complain about the alarm going off at 6!  LOL.

He sleeps through the night now.  Sometimes he wakes up around 5 or 6 and is restless...he just needs a little "num num" to get him through to when I can really feed him before I drop him off.  We call breast milk "num num".

Anyway...I'm back in the real world and trying to learn to integrate my two lives...work and being a momma.  It is tough.  I'll have more pictures soon I hope!

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