I survived my first day back to work. He is in such good hands and is so loved but I still cried. I teared up when I handed him over but BAWLED in the car on the way to work. J sends me texts throughout the day and pictures of the little guy so it makes me day go by quicker for some reason.
Work is INSANE. I have so much to dig through and go through...I'm just overwhelmed at the moment. I feel like it was just yesterday I was here and then I look over and see pictures of D and I'm like ??? OH, YEAH! I have a kid! It is the strangest feeling!
Anyway, I survived...I did...today was a little easier. I didn't cry. I made sure I got up earlier (and I am NOT a morning person) to spend a little extra time with him before I dropped him off. I didn't internally complain about the alarm going off at 6! LOL.
He sleeps through the night now. Sometimes he wakes up around 5 or 6 and is restless...he just needs a little "num num" to get him through to when I can really feed him before I drop him off. We call breast milk "num num".
Anyway...I'm back in the real world and trying to learn to integrate my two lives...work and being a momma. It is tough. I'll have more pictures soon I hope!