In about 30 hours Matt and I will leave our house for the last time as a family of two. It still hasn't registered in my mind that we will be holding our miracle on Thursday. He will literally be in our arms and I will be able to kiss him and love him and breathe in his little baby smell!
I still think about our long infertilty journey all the time and how we were blessed. I don't know why we were chosen to have this little guy but I know God has a special plan for him. I am beyond blessed and will never take it for granted. Never.
I haven't let myself go to the actual birth process yet. I'm afraid he is going to be a big big baby and I just don't want difficulty having him. I know I have a huge support system and with being almost 35 and having my first kid, I know I have a very large group of women who can help me through the questions.
I'm rambling now so I will sign off for now. I will type more tomorrow and put my last thoughts down before my life changes forever.