Tuesday, August 31, 2010

364 days ago...

364 days ago I was cautiously optimistic and celebrating our nine week mark of pregnancy...little did I know that early the next morning before my September 1st doctor's appointment I would be spotting and then a few hours later hear the words that my baby was gone.

It still makes my heart ache thinking back.  The devastation.  I remember sitting in my car just numb.  September 1st was a life changing day for me.  Makes me nervous that I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow...I know it shouldn't but it does.

I know we have Dawson now...he seems to be doing just fine...and I am forever grateful.  However, I will never forget the first little one I had growing inside me.  Never.  Being pregnant helps the heart ache...but the heart ache is still there nonetheless. 

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