Tuesday, March 02, 2010

My heart is already pounding...

I go in tomorrow to find out. Yes, March 3. I cannot believe it is already here and somehow, strangely enough, I wish I had more time.

I will go in sometime between 7:30 - 8:30 for bloodwork. They usually call before 3 pm. It is 2:49 pm now...so 24 hours from now, I will probably know the direction my life will take.

I am trying to stay positive which is extremely difficult for me. I have been having flashes of possible outcomes. It is making my head spin.

I am afraid to admit that I could possibly be pregnant. I have had a few symptoms (big, sore boobs, some gagging, some tiredness)...but I can't say for sure that I feel I am because the meds that I am on could be the cause of them too.

So, my heart is already pounding. I can think of nothing else but the impending decision...to have a biological baby or not, that is the question.

5 comments:

Just Jiff said...

Mine is pounding too!!

I wish I could go with you, but I'll be there in spirit. *HUGS*

Karen said...

I'll be praying for you! May the Peace of God rule your heart, No Matter What!

Have you considered taking a HPT . . I know you aren't supposed to but just wanted to tempt you a little . . . ha! It might not be right this early though . . either way.

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Oh man. Those are a looonnng 24 hours. Fingers crossed for you.

Shandrea said...

My heart is pounding for you as well. Sending you hugs and prayers. :0)

Billie said...

I'm praying for you Lisa! God's will be done. Hoping and praying for good news! Love you!