Thursday, January 21, 2010

Dorie: Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...

Private Practice really got me tonight. I am so glad that Maya decided not to have an abortion. I erased a whole soap box rant. You can only imagine what an infertile woman thinks about abortion.

Matt and I had some rare quiet time tonight and here was the conversation...

Lisa: You know what would be cool?
Matt: What?
Lisa: If your new insurance had IVF coverage...
Matt: Yeah...

Pause...long pause...

Matt: You know what would be cool?
Lisa: What? (I am not going to type what I actually said because he usually is sarcastic if he repeats me with the same question)...lol...and it isn't appropriate for me to repeat....publicly...
Matt: If we took in one of the little kids from Haiti...

Matt has such a huge heart. I am so thankful, so very very thankful, that he is so open to adoption. In fact, even if Matt and I are able to have a biological child, we will more than likely adopt as well. Not only am I thankful that Matt is open to adoption, I am thankful Matt is 100% on board with all the fertility treatments because I know some men who are totally against it. Don't get me wrong he HATES my emotional mood swings and the shots and steroids and hormones...by day three of our IVF cycle we just go to separate places in the house and leave each other alone...lol.

I have met another new "fertility challenged" friend here on the blog. She was searching for women who had gone to my clinic and my blog came up and she reached out to me. We have emailed practically every day since. There is such a bond with other infertile women. There is nothing like it. I assume it is like bonding with someone you share a life altering circumstance with (i.e., losing a spouse, etc.)

Anyway, she lives a few hours away and we were to meet up today for coffee. I had a business trip up that way today but I had to postpone because I woke up to a flat tire. Anyway, we were laughing tonight about our "views" on infertility and how we actually view it sometimes. We were discussing IUIs (intrauterine insemination) and we were getting tickled. She said she thinks about Look Who's Talking and all the little swimmers trying so hard to get to the egg. I laughed and said every IUI I had I would lie on my back and cheer the little guys on "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming - Dorie" or "You can do it, Little Guys, come on". I literally said those things out loud. Seriously. You have to lie there for 15 minutes and stare at the ceiling AND you must be somewhat psychotic anyway to go through all of the fertility treatments, just saying!! Oh well.

She asked me how my "wait" was coming. I still have almost two weeks before we see if this Jupiter size cyst is gone. I told her it hasn't been too bad. It has been very busy professionally for me and that has kept me occupied. Next week is an important week professionally and I probably will have my mind on NOTHING else but work. Anyway, I did tell her that I had my "pharmacy" out on the table and every time I walk by it I have this compelling urge to give myself a shot.


If you remember from last time, the boxes of meds are little vials (for shots) that help your eggs grow more mature and for your ovaries to produce A LOT of eggs. If you see the Bravelle boxes....well, those eight boxes were $3200+ (without insurance). Total bill was well over $4500 but insurance knocked it down to $600...Whew!

Anyway - I feel the blog has been SOOO boring...nothing to write about especially if we are in between treatment. Oh well, if you come on and read this ENTIRE boring thread...post Banana Boogers on the comments. LOL.

7 comments:

sara said...

banana boogers, but i did not think it was boring.

Seth, Jen, Hannah, and Cailyn said...

banana boogers...totally addicted to your blog. Praying for you guys.

Paige said...

banana boogers!

You crack me up and I must agree I was on the verge of turning off Private Practice. It was getting too close for comfort.

it's true once you've been on the boat you will always understand!

Ginger O said...

banana boogers!!

Anonymous said...

Banana Boogers!!! Praying for you everyday!
Lori

Susan Cofer Fell said...

Banana Boogers, BaNaNa BoOgErS! BANANA BOOGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you Fink!!!!!

Molly and Kevin Strom said...

banana boogers....never boring!