Saturday, November 21, 2009

Xanax anyone?

I think my emotions are coming to a head. I haven't stopped crying since about 1 pm. An emotional break maybe? Reality, I believe, is settling in. A lot of moments I am just going through my day like normal and the thought that I lost the baby and this last round didn't work crosses my mind and then it just feels like someone did a seat drop on my chest. Numbing.

I am struggling right now and life is just not turning out the way I thought and hoped it would. Guess I am having a pretty good pity party right now. Pity party of one...cause I am not inviting anyone. I guess this post is a semi-invitation...please decline the invite.

I've tried to summon all my energy to figure out what to post for the last few days. Nothing comes to mind. Blank. Zip. Zero. Nadda...nothing comes to mind.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I can't remember the "address" in the Bible, but I know the Word tells us that when our spirit is in trouble,and we don't have the words to express, the Holy Spirit intercedes for us with groans only the Father can understand. Rest in knowing the Spirit is speaking for you to the King. Many blessings!

Anonymous said...

sorry, I meant to say "when our spirit is troubled" not "in trouble" LOL So much for being eloquent. :o)

becca said...

Romans 8:26
Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.

Liz said...

girl, working through grief is a long country mile from having a pity-party. Get your cry out, and take your time! We're praying for you and are here (via internet) to listen.