Friday, November 27, 2009

Thankful...

I can selfishly say I wish I had more to be thankful for this year. It has been one of the most painful years of my life. Well, not just one but the most painful year of my life. I, unfortunately, am not looking forward to Christmas (usually, my favorite time of the year).

I am thankful for God's grace and His provision. Without Him I would be going nowhere fast. I can hold on to the hope of things looking up from the bottom of my valley. Things are really tough right now in every way.

I have put off posting because I haven't had anything positive or nice or fluffy or warm and fuzzy to say. Right now I am holding on with all of my might that this nightmare of a valley will end soon. I know I learn so much about myself during difficult times...and I pray I come out of this a GENIUS. :-)

I hope that all of you have had a wonderful Thanksgiving. May God bless you during this holiday season. I will post when I can.

3 comments:

Baby hopes... said...

This blog is your podium, use it to express yourself. I think you should be honest and raw with how you feel, no sensor. If people don't like what you say they don't have to read it. I am here for you, I have not left you behind my friend. I am not out of the woods and feel afraid every moment of the unkown. I appreciate your true feelings the good and the bad...your human! Love and hugs, Nikki

Just Jiff said...

If you were happy all the time it just wouldn't be normal. I think that if you didn't have the bad times you couldn't truly appreciate the good times. Then again, with all the awful stuff (that's putting it mildly, I realize) you've been through, you certainly deserve nothing short of a miracle.
*hugs*

cagrlasu said...

Lisa- Keep pushing forward. When you are finally holding your little one in your arms it will all be worth it. Throughout my pregnancy losses I have felt exactly the same way you have but I have also become stronger and learned to cherish motherhood that much more because of it. Hold on to your dreams. Remember the quote "I believe I can keep going long after I think I can't." It is what has kept me going all of this time. Sending big hugs your way!