Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Psalm 139

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, a]">[a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to b]">[b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Today, Father, I know you know my every thought. There is NOWHERE I can go that your presence can't surround me. Even in this dark difficult time, you are here with me, holding me, loving me and protecting me. Father, give me your perfect peace today. I need your perfect peace to fill the huge gaps and holes in my heart. Father, I ask for strength to face the day. I ask for wisdom to keep my mouth shut when I need not say a word. I need your guidance, Father, and I ask for your sovereign favor. Rest your hand upon me today, let me tangibly feel your presence. Where I am are today you are sheer brute strength!!


Anonymous said...

oriYou inspire me to be a better christian each and every day that I read your posts. Life is difficult and totally unfair, but God understands our human nature and loves us despite it. I have felt every emotion possible during your journey and appreciate your willingness to share such an intimate part of your life with family, friends, and strangers. Your strength and spirit have shined over and over again and I know that whatever God has planned for you and Matt that it will be more than satisfying to your souls!
Love you,

BrookeTeeter said...

well, you made it. I can't imagine how hard today was on the inside. You know I'm a yell away (or you can pick up the phone and use the cool intercom messaging system)! Love you so much! I'm here for whatever!