I arrived at work today and looked down at my scripture calendar and it was off a few days so I started flipping the pages to make it current. And yesterday's scripture was "Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord." Psalm 27:14. KJV. As soon as I read the word "WAIT", God thumped me on the back of the head and said "pay attention".
It was like God grabbed my remote control and flipped on the TV and pressed play on the DVD...and what I saw was a very familiar scene...
Flash to scene: "What I do when I wait on Matt in the car"
I was sitting in my car (in the passenger's seat) flipping on the radio, tapping my feet, fidgeting, going through the glove compartment, cleaning out my purse, changing CDs...etc. That escalated to me talking out loud, "COME ON MATT"; "UGH"; "I MEAN REALLY"; "MATT!!". Then it escalated to me honking the horn once or twice and then beating my head against my head rest. As time went on and STILL NO MATT, I got out of my car to go in the house to see WHAT THE CRAP HE WAS DOING! I was so frustrated by the end of the "scene" that Matt and I argued all the way to wherever we were going because I was so angry! (and rightly so, but that wasn't the point in this scene, ha)
Anyway, if anyone reading this knows both Matt and me, you know how VERY TRUE this is. I think God has a sick sense of humor sometimes. Matt and I are polar opposites. Matt is laid back and nothing rushes him. He is NEVER in a hurry and takes his OWN precious time to do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. Me? Well, I am "mach 5 with my hair on fire" and have a deadline to do everything. I do not like to wait on anyone or anything and cannot STAND to sit idle. If I decided to do something or go somewhere...I want to go RIGHT then and do it RIGHT then! I don't want to wait.
After God clicked the DVD off, I snapped back to present and re-read the words, "Wait on the Lord". I guess God was telling me that I do not wait very patiently. I visualize myself constantly running ahead on a busy sidewalk and God is always 10 steps behind me constantly telling me to "Wait".
I know with me, I want God's day planner to match my day planner. And, when I want something I want it now. In my spiritual life, I struggle with God's time schedule. I don't like it. I know He gives me promises for my future, but I want them NOW, I don't want to wait for them. Maybe that is why He doesn't tell me stuff all the time.
Today, WATCH how you wait. I "wait" very impatiently. How can God renew my strength when I am all stressed and pulling my hair out during the "wait"? How about this verse: Psalm 37:7: "Be STILL before the Lord and WAIT patiently for him..." HA! I can just see God telling me to "sit still and quit fidgeting" over and over and over and over and over again.
Enjoy the "wait" today.