Thursday, September 03, 2009

Truly happy...

I really have to watch what I say. I want to be transparent and honest in my posts...but I don't want ANYONE to walk on egg shells around me or be scared to share their great news or even talk about their upcoming arrivals.

God obviously thinks I can handle this...I may not at the moment, but He knows I can...that gives me faith that I am going to make it through this.

I am truly happy for each and everyone of you. I would NEVER want to be a damper on anyone's good news. EVER.

2 comments:

Liz said...

Dear Lisa - God promises not to give us more temptation than we can bear. He says nothing about giving us more grief than we can bear. Because such grief pushes us to rely on him. I hope and pray that you allow yourself all the time you need to grieve this loss, so you too will be able to minister to others through their pain one day. Your sweet spirit shows through in your posts. I will pray for the baby that God has planned for you, because I know he or she will be greatly loved.

jgoode said...

Oh, Lisa. My heart aches for you. Grief happens on so many levels. I grieved for those little lives lost. I grieved because "being a mommy" was taken away. I saw myself as a mom, but nobody else did. And your parents, I know exactly what you mean. For the first time in my life, they couldn't fix it. They so wanted my babies, their first grandkids, and they hurt for that, but they also hurt so much for me, a pain they had never known.

And facebook... It's been almost six years and I had my own facebook issues a couple of weeks ago. My little Gabe would have started kindergarten, and I felt his void in a way I haven't in a really long time. It was so painful to read everybody's status about kindergarten, especially the ones talking about how painful it is to send your kids to school. Ummm, yeah.

Although the pain never goes away, a day will come when getting out of bed doesn't seem so bad.