I don't even know where to begin. I anticipated 6 pm all day (I am supposed to give my shots between 6 - 8 pm). Seriously, I think the stress and responsibility of ME mixing and preparing the shots myself were actually worse than me sticking the needle in! The first shot was the easy one. This drug is called Leuprolide. It is the SubQ version of the Lupron treatment that I have been on for the last six months to put me in menopause. This drug is also used for the treatment of hormone-responsive cancers (i.e. prostate or breast cancer). In my case, Leuprolide is used to control my ovarian stimulation. The picture of the shot is below. Sorry, it isn't a great picture. Matt took my camera to youth camp and the battery is dead so I took the pictures on my phone. Anyway, here is the first shot...
This was the easy one. I prepped the spot on my stomach and just popped it in. It wasn't too horrible. If I just had to do one...I think I would be OK. But, I had another shot to do.
The second shot requires me to mix the recipe. The recipe includes four vials of Bravelle (stimulates my ovaries), one vial of Menopur (helps develop multiple eggs) and one vial of the solution. I have six vials to deal with. This one made me so nervous. I had trouble putting the little "Q-cap" on the syringe and I messed up the first vial of solution. Ugh, that sent me in a tizzy. I got upset and just knew I was going to do it all wrong. The below picture shows all the ingredients...
You can't see it very well, but on the end where the needle goes there is a little thing called a "Q-cap". This Q-cap screws on the end of the syringe so it will easily fit over the vials of medicines. I have to extract the solution and then shoot it in each one of the vials. Each vial is full of powder. One at a time, I shoot the solution in the vial, make sure it is mixed up and then extract the medicine back in the syringe. I do this on all five of the medicine vials. Once all of the vials are mixed into the syringe, I then have to take off the Q-cap and put the needle on it.
By the time I had the meds mixed I was so worked up. I just looked at the needle and just couldn't stick myself. I knew I had to do it but I just couldn't. If anyone has tried to rip off a band aid, you might understand. I mean, you know that you have to rip the band aid off but you know it is going to hurt. So, you just sit there and hold the end of the band aid with the anticipation of ripping it off. Argh.
I had to back myself up against the wall so I couldn't back away from the needle. I took a deep breath and jabbed. This one hurt when the meds went in.
It took me about an hour to calm down. I am a little sick at my stomach. I don't know if that is because I worked myself up or if it is a side effect. Anyway, it is going to be a difficult 8 days of shots. I have to do these two shots until probably next Saturday or Sunday. Pray for me. This isn't going to be easy.