Today is a slow day. At work we implemented "summer hours" due to the economy, so I have some time on my hands. Every Friday until September 25th, our office is taking 1/2 days off without pay to help our bottom line. I am just thankful to still have a job.
From my experience, I have never had to worry about ovulating. Every cycle check has been completely normal. When given Clomid I have always produced at least two eggs. So, I have never worried about ovulating. Yesterday I was driving back to work from McDonalds (which I need to lose a few pounds before starting IVF, per the doctor :-) I began thinking, wow, I am having IVF in a few weeks. Then the thought that has never really crossed my mind hit me between the eyes: What if I get pregnant and miscarry?
I have just never really "thought" about it, you know what I mean? So...I have started now specifically praying for my uterus :-) I know I can ovulate so I have no doubt when they harvest my eggs, that we will end up with good embroys. It is just the thought of the embroys NOT implanting in my uterus. OR, the embroys implanting and then a few weeks later I miscarry.
I know that miscarriage is a common fear all women face. I told God today that I would rather the embroys not take at all if it was to all end in miscarriage anyway. So, I began praying for my uterus to be such a safe and nurturing place that the embroys will want to stay.
It's kind of a weird prayer, I know, but, oh well.