Matt preached on the story of Job last night in youth service and I imagined myself in Job's position. I imagined Satan going to and fro from the ends of the earth looking for someone who could handle the infertility struggle. He goes to God and God says, "Have you considered my servant, Lisa?" WOW! God knows what I can handle and He has THAT much faith in me??!!!! Wow!
I love it when people give me a hard task and they know and have faith that I can get it done. Honestly, there is no better feeling in the world knowing that someone trusts you so much with a delicate task. Think about it. It feels empowering and special.
That is how I am looking at my infertility situation. God entrusted me with the problem of infertility for HIS GLORY. Either way, people can read this blog and be blessed and encouraged that God answers prayers (i.e., that I have a baby) or people can read this blog and be encouraged to see that people CAN make it through hard times when the answer is "No" (i.e. no baby). His Glory will be carried out either way. PLEASE know that when you read this blog.
God will be glorified. Through our human eyes it may look selfish or mean...we want to say, "GIVE ME WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT, GOD!". But, I am not here for me. I am here to carry out what God has called me to do. Jesus wasn't sent to this earth so he could live in a palace, have a beautiful wife and kids and have a perfect life. Jesus was sent to this earth to save a sinner like me. He endured a horrible death for my stupidness so I wouldn't have to. Wow. We are called to be like Jesus. I am called to minister to people and through this blog I hope to minister to those reading it. Yes, I am going through it and it sucks, but to God be the glory. God's ways are higher than my ways and if He is able to use my situation to reach and bring ONE person into the Kingdom of God, it is worth it.